What if I don't want to be resurrected?

I've recently been impressed to study the teachings and biographies of the First Presidency. My respect, love, and admiration for these men grow deeper with every chapter. It has been a powerful, revelatory experience, and I've also learned more about doctrine and Church history. For example, President Nelson's biography relates how his grandfather received a visitation from his late father from beyond the veil and recorded the interview.

30 years and I'm just now learning this?

I have a confession to make. Most people don't know this about me, but I sometimes—even often—get bored at church and zone out. Shocker, I know. But it's not often that we learn something new about the core of the Gospel, right? Don't get me wrong, the principles of the Gospel never stop being interesting and wonderful, but sometime after the 40th lesson on a subject, it starts to feel just a little stale. That's why I get really excited when I do learn something new about the principles of the Gospel.

Contention and the spirit of contention

The best period of Nephite history, hands-down, is the few hundred years after Christ visited them. Mormon records this idyllic point in their history in 4 Nephi, saying:There were no envyings, nor strifes, nor tumults, nor whoredoms, nor lyings, nor murders, nor any manner of lasciviousness; and surely there could not be a happier people among all the people who had been created by the hand of God. There were no robbers, nor murderers, neither were there Lamanites, nor any manner of -ites; but they were in one, the children of Christ, and heirs to the kingdom of God. And how blessed were they! For the Lord did bless them in all their doings.What a utopia! If you want a preview of life during Christ's millennial reign, read 4 Nephi. From 3 Nephi 11 until the final destruction, it seems life for the Nephites was, for once, perfectly beautiful, peaceful, and calm. Except for that one part.

Heaven and Hevel

My first son was born during a very busy time in our lives. I was working full-time, attending college full-time, and serving as a counselor in a branch presidency. It was a rough period of early mornings and late nights. Sometimes, I didn't see my baby boy awake for several days at a time. For his first birthday, my wife created a video of the moments she had captured and set it to music. Let me say upfront, I am not a crier; it drives my wife nuts. But I cried when I watched that video. So many firsts. So many moments when heaven touched earth. And I wasn't there for much of it. Those moments would never come again—not in that way, not with that child, not at that time. They were gone forever.

I have faith, but I don't feel it

I've been less frequent in my blogging this past year. A large part of this has been a shift in my spare time to launching the Conference Talk Podcast (if you haven't given it a listen yet, check it out)! Meg, one of my co-hosts, ran yesterday's episode. She discussed Elder Hugo Montoya's talk, "The Eternal Principle of Love." In that talk, Elder Montoya says, "Jesus walked with no fear and with no doubt to Gethsemane, trusting in His Father." Meg surprised me by pushing back on the wording of that line. Fear is a natural emotion and part of the human experience. Surely Christ must have felt some amount of nervousness at that moment? Can't we have fear and faith?

Flimsy Philosophies

We have observed a new religion seeping into the membership of the Church over the past decade. This religion is a deconstructed imitation of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. It copies the culture, vocabulary, and standard works of the Gospel, but waters down (and sometimes rejects outright) the foundational truths of the Gospel. If the Gospel is the healthy cows of Pharaoh's dream, then this alternate religion is the sickly cows-- hollowed-out shells of the real deal. And like the emaciated kine of Pharaoh's dream, this skeleton gospel devours and destroys healthy testimonies of the true Gospel it imitates.

What's up with Jesus's hands?

We have three kids ages 6 and under. Time out as a couple is rare and fleeting. Movie theaters are virtually out of the question. But when the first two episodes of The Chosen hit the box office last month, my wife and I made sure to go. I loved it. Watching those episodes was a wonderful experience. Until I ruined it. Spoilers ahead, you've been warned.

Until the day I die

I loved the second area of my mission. The Bishop was engaged in missionary work, the ward mission leader was a rock star, and the members were warm and accepting. It was really awesome-- definitely one of the highlights of my whole mission. I was there quite a while; I spent 6 months (and 5 companions) in that ward. But no matter how awesome an area is, you can still burn out.

For the strength training of youth

Last month, Elder Uchtdorf announced an overhaul of the Church's pamphlet, "For the Strength of Youth." This pamphlet has long been the standard not just for teenagers, but for adults, in how to speak, dress, and act. The new version is very different from the one you and I grew up with, and in a good way. If sincerely applied, these new guidelines will be an enormous benefit to the rising generation. However, because more emphasis is placed on the why and less on the what, some members sadly use the new FSY guidelines to justify lowering their standards. Let's be clear: if you think these changes mean the Lord expects less of Church members, you've got it completely backwards.

Lessons from a dirty name tag

Do you know how many doors I knocked during my mission? I did the math. By my estimate, I knocked on between 150,000 and 225,000 doors during my two years. I can only remember a handful of them. One gentleman answered the door, barking, "Who is it? What do you want?" The man didn't give us a chance to respond. He shoved his head out the door and leaned close to us, quickly reading our shirt pocket name tags, then looked up. "Jesus Christ? Jesus Christ on my doorstep! Well, I'll be damned!" With that, he flew back inside and slammed the door.